I just took a long walk and I did something I’ve always wanted to do. I went into the middle of my high school’s football field and laid down and listened to music for a while. It was nice, but I wish there were more stars
Anonymous said: What is it you want?
Find someone I can live with, no matter what that means
I know what I want now
god I feel so fucking sick why can’t I just vomit or die and get it over with
well im never gonna fall asleep
Yeah, me and all my friend that aren’t actually people but are vinyl records had a great fucking time sitting around a fire together. So glad I breathed in all that smoke and pissed off my parents so I could learn something I already fucking know.
I’m gonna light a fire in my back yard and sit around it all by myself because bonfires are fun and apparently you don’t fucking need friends to have a good time so I’m gonna pretend that all my records are gonna be my friends and we are gonna have an awesome time until I break them, which will happen inevitably because apparently that’s how fucking everything works here
All I want is to fall asleep when I need to or at all or only be asleep forever.
I don’t have any way to give up
I’m not crazy anymore I’m just sad
There’s no way I’ll be able to sleep.
Fuck I can’t stop my hands from shaking and I feel sick and my heart is always beating way too fast and I just feel like I’m going crazy.
I really need to talk to her
Why the fuck is it still light out get me out of here
Someone hang out with me today I look amazing