I’m saved, I can tell people now that I will get better, that I will be okay, and that now, that’s not a hope or a wish but the future, in favorable odds
drug induced sleep here I come
First day of school was lots of hugs
Anonymous said: Why were you in the hospital??
private message and ill tell you
I did not, die, and conversely, I am alive, but I was in the hospital for the last month and a half
I just took a long walk and I did something I’ve always wanted to do. I went into the middle of my high school’s football field and laid down and listened to music for a while. It was nice, but I wish there were more stars
Anonymous said: What is it you want?
Find someone I can live with, no matter what that means
I know what I want now
god I feel so fucking sick why can’t I just vomit or die and get it over with
well im never gonna fall asleep
Yeah, me and all my friend that aren’t actually people but are vinyl records had a great fucking time sitting around a fire together. So glad I breathed in all that smoke and pissed off my parents so I could learn something I already fucking know.
I’m gonna light a fire in my back yard and sit around it all by myself because bonfires are fun and apparently you don’t fucking need friends to have a good time so I’m gonna pretend that all my records are gonna be my friends and we are gonna have an awesome time until I break them, which will happen inevitably because apparently that’s how fucking everything works here
All I want is to fall asleep when I need to or at all or only be asleep forever.
I don’t have any way to give up
I’m not crazy anymore I’m just sad